I'm NOT Delusional

We know I'm not one to talk much about my actual problems...I'm usually the one who gives advice and such not over share with people...other than what I share here which is honestly censored and what I tell a few close friends most things I'm going thru I go thru myself...

Its just the way I am...I don't like others advice...I don't need others judgements...I just prefer to deal and move on...all honesty if being pregnant didn't show obvious signs...no one would know I was pregnant...and it'd be a hell of a lot easier for me that way...

Its not that I don't appreciate people caring...I guess I just have a hard time believing anyone really does care...I do and do and only get shit in return...so I have learned just to do it myself if I want it...its easier and no one then can disappoint you but yourself...

So though I don't feel like talking about the situation out loud...about money...about daycare...about anything and everything in between...its not cause I live in a happy little bubble where I magically think everything will work...I think about the stuff non stop and am figuring out what do to when and how and why...and that's all I can do right now...and if that's not good enough too bad...at this point I don't really care...cause I don't know what else to do...and if your not going to make useful suggestions and just criticize then just stay out of my life...

Brandy

(Side Note: Anyone who actually reads or knows about this blog aren't those causing me grief so please don't be concerned that I'm speaking about you)