Alright Tomorrow is Really the Day

Tomorrow is Chelle's big day...then we both can tell mom and I can tell the rest of u...Chelle thinks she is having a boy...personally so do I...I don't know why but I have a feeling...hopefully wrong cause she wants a little princess like herself...though poor Adam...he needs a little boy...

She and I have plans to meet when I get off work to meet and get our balloons...we each have to get a pink and a blue one and give mom the one it is...now the question is will she be getting 2 pink ones, 2 blue ones, or one of each....oh the anticipation...and I even know what one of them will be lol...

Alright so stay tuned cause I'll be posting it here at least 24 hrs prior to any announcement on facebook...so this was your warning...Idk what time I'll be posting depends on mom's reaction...I'll aim for the same posting time between 8pm-10pm but we shall see...

Need a weekend from the weekend

Gosh who wants to go to work tomorrow...I'm exhausted...and this being pregnant thing over the summer I don't think is gonna go over so well...just hanging out on the deck watching Tyler in this heat was enough...

That kid is funny he was in his pool then was done so we changed him out of his swim trunks and were playing inside...mom was still out on the deck and he said he wanted to go see her...I then come to find him in the pool completely clothed and mom is like oh well he has other clothes...

Took dad back to the VA...oh yeah he finally got a bed and made us come get him this weekend...no offense but what a waste of time...and not to be mean but I swear the more he knows he annoys off the better he feels...he better not think were coming to get him every weekend...ugh to that...

And I don't think the baby likes the computer sitting on it...it seems to try to kick it off just isn't strong enough yet...can't wait for the day that the laptop goes flying lol...

Brandy

Memorial Day Weekend

Ugh...been a long tiring weekend...ended up helping chelle get her house put together...between the shopping and then all the work we did I was exhausted yesterday

We had her car so loaded it was a site...first off two pregnant girls at home depot and lowes is a site to be seen...we had to buy a push mower...weed eater...shovel...grill..propane tank...and hedge clippers...now the weed eater, shovel and hedge clippers were bought at lowes...cause they sucked at prices on the other items...so that wasn't too bad...at home depot there is chelle and I with a big flat cart...push mower box, the grill box and propane tank...of course the grill box wouldn't fit in the truck...the back seat was filled with our other purchases from walmart and kmart...so we managed to squeeze the lawn mower into the back seat too...are only option for the grill was taking it out of the box...so there we are opening the box and emptying into the truck so we could get it home...oh and not one person offered help...but we managed to get it all by ourselves...meanwhile a husband and wife team were trying to buckle down a grill to their little attachment they had on their SUV and started before we checked out at home depot and were not done by the time we left...how sad for them lol

Tyler and Treyshon played in the pool today...they are so cute...and little fishies...Trey loved the water didn't even care when it was on his face...Tyler on the other hand wants his face towel dried all the time...but he still loves to swim...

 They both were putting their heads under water

 Ty trying to be brave himself and get his face wet

 Brothers in the pool

Treyshon showing off his doggy paddle...









So odd to think that chelle and I will each have a kid Treyshon's age next summer...oh god what are we getting ourselves into...though he's such a good baby we'll still be lucky if ours are half as good as he is...Tyler is like the energizer bunny...he keeps going and going and going...no nap or anything...and I'm sure he'll just love having extra babies to torture lol...alright need to prop my swollen feet...ttfn

Its A...

Just teasing...u can't know just quite yet...soon...Chelle finds out June 1st...so it won't be much longer...I can tell you its not a 2 headed fire breathing dragon much to my disappointment lol

Here's what I can tell you...the kid decided it wanted to sleep...now normally at 730 am its up and moving while I'm sitting at work...not this morning...it was all cuddled up head at my right hip, butt at left hip...and it didn't want to wake up at all to move...finally the tech made it mad when it was trying to get a pic of its arm it was laying on...and flipped around and went right back to sleep...it kindly rolled one more time to get a better pic of its spine...

When I went down for the dr appt portion it of course then wanted to be up and when the dr went to hear the heartbeat it squirmed all around so that again it took awhile for her to get a reading on it...I was like yep now it wants to be up...but heart rate is good and it weighs in at 1 lb 5 oz right where it should be at its age...

So as one can see...both are head shots but in the second one you can see it has quite a big mouth...I already teased my sister that it takes after her...Theresa said it looked happy...I said yes cause it knew it wasn't cooperating...but I still say it just has a big mouth...

When Ty seen the pic he wanted to know where my baby was...I said still in my tummy...and he said oh I thought it came out already...he may be a little confused since I don't really look pregnant...I suppose between my height and the fact I am chubby to begin with I really just look like I put on some weight...well I have and pretty much it went right back to where I originally lost it...some may be upset that they just look fat and not pregnant...I'm okay with it cause I still feel the less ppl know the better...only 2 ppl at work actually know and I'm sticking with that until if and when I pop or I'll just continue to carry stuff in front of my tummy...

I know maybe that's not normal...but I was thinking the other day I think that part of me is broken...any major events in life that most want friends and family and the world to know about...I'm like lets go and get it done and over with and act like it didn't happen cause its no big deal it happens all the time...but at the same time I enjoy helping ppl celebrate their milestones...I just don't like to make a fuss of mine...I guess we'll just leave it with I'm special like that

Brandy

Tomorrow...tomorrow...we'll find out tomorrow...its only a day a way!!!

Didn't feel like blogging yesterday...just kind of annoyed mood...don't know why but I guess u'll have that...

So tomorrow is the big day...well according to everyone else...I think everyone else is more excited than I am...even my supervisor at work cant wait...I think I'm kinda dreading it...for some reason it may actually make it all seem real...and even though I know its real...without proof with a picture or knowing what its to be I can still sometimes think its a dream...I guess we'll see how I react tomorrow lol

Now I do have some bad news...I was originally going to post what it is on here first over facebook and such...figuring those who take the time to read my nonsense should get some bonus lol...but my mom wants to wait to find out what it is till chelle knows on Jun 1st...so I'm going to postpone any announcements till she officially knows...but i will still post it here first...

I'm just hoping its not a 2 headed baby that breathes fire and has a tail...okay secretly it would be kinda cool if it was...what can I say I have a great imagination...and a baby that breathes fire may come in handy lol...oh well as long as its healthy and a girl all will be okay...well I'm sure it will be okay if its a boy too...but well we don't want that lol

Brandy

Legs

Poor chelle's legs...her pregnancy has hit them hard...since she apparently has poor circulation due to her heart surgery as a baby her legs are just broke out in varicose veins...her left leg just looks so puffy, sore, and bruised...she has the special stockings and props them up as much as she can but they are just gross...

Her job requires her to pretty much be on her feet all day...and now with moving into the house she doesn't sit down...she's only 22 and by the time the kid pops her legs will look like they belong to someone at least twice her age...and once they are there they don't go away...it was bound to happen but the pregnancy just made it much quicker...

Then there is me...I've been overweight and such to begin with and not a vein other than a little spot of just spider veins that have a better chance to go away...my ankles swell up a little but nothing that is concerning...its just so odd...looking at me and chelle one would think I'd be the one with the problems not her...I guess you cant bank health issues on just by looks...

We'll just keep our fingers crossed that she won't have anything more major than the veins and I'll keep on my rather boring pregnancy route

Brandy

Mondays are Rough

There must be something about Mondays...this is the 2nd one I've had to come home and take a nap after work...I'm just drained by the time I get home...but after my nap I feel fine...I always have to wake up in time for House...though with this being the season finale I don't know what will make me want to get up if this Monday nap pattern continues

I am trying to convince my family that we should take advantage of mine and chelle's maternity leave and go on vacation in October...just run away for a little bit...I know that I'll have a ton of other more important things to do during that time off but just a little break w/ the little ones before we head back to the misery in Butler...is that too much to ask for...

Knowing me I can have most of what I need to get done, done before I leave the hospital...if chelle and I can plan to have the babies the same day or within the same weekend...I know that would be slightly odd but more convenient...and everything is OK by the following weekend we could be heading to the beach...I know its a pipe dream but something has got to keep me going

Brandy

Boom Boom ain't it Great to be Crazy

I think I need to throw a party for when Chad finally goes off to jail...the mess he left my poor mom cause he can't control his drinking is ridiculous...if I was her I would of killed him...and obviously he hasn't learned anything or even cares he's going to jail and he just thinks its funny...I really wish he would of gotten a stricter sentence and sent to actual prison cause he really does need to learn a lesson the hard way...

On a cuter note poor Tyler just wants to keep playing even though he exhausts himself...he just won't give in to sleep and then gets whiny and grouchy...but you can't blame him he's 3...and he is such a talker...today consisted of 2 cute convos:

Convo 1:
Ty: Bubba you smoke
Me: No I quit its bad for the baby
Ty: How is it bad
Me: It can hurt it 
Ty: Oh well when the baby comes out you can smoke again cause it won't hurt it anymore

*Glad he supports my smoking habit lol*

Convo 2:
Ty: Bubba I'm going to shoot your dog and get you a new one
Me: Why are you going to shoot my dog
Ty: Cause he hurt you so I'm gonna shoot him
Me: Oh he didn't mean too...it was accident
Ty: How was it an accident
Me: We were playing and he pawed me and he's so big he accidentally hurt me
Ty: How is he so big
Me: Its the type of dog he is
Ty: He shouldn't of done that I'm still gonna shoot him


*Cute that he is protective of me...Bad that he wants to shoot my dog*


Speaking of Tyler the talker a little old lady in the dollar store asked how old he was...when I told her she's like my goodness he talks so well...well at that moment in time he found a rake...and was explaining to me how he needed it to help Chad rake the mud outback...and I mean he was really going into detail that he sounded like a mini adult...of course as soon as he knew someone was paying attention to him other than me he clammed up...he is really too cute...if my kid is half as cute as him  I'm in good shape lol

Brandy

Not too much to say...

Not too much to report the last two days...rash or whatever it is is getting better...so thats good

Evan escaped the yard the other day...dug under the fence...he wanted to play with the neighbors...thanks goodness their yippy dogs weren't out...I tried to play football with him and ended up with some lovely bruising on my hands...he pawed me...managed to not break the skin but I bruised right where he pawed...as shown in the picture to the right...but don't worry Tyler told me it will get better...

Nothing else too exciting...went shopping for my mom cause she hates grocery shopping...I typically don't mind and the stores weren't that crowded but the ppl there didn't know how to just get out of the way...I think I got everything she wanted...but by the end I was frustrated and was ready to ram a cart into the next person who got in my way...

I think I may finally be getting excited about being pregnant...more so cause the dr appt is less than a week away...I think I'm excited and nervous...cause I think I realized I really want a girl...and if its a boy I know it will be okay but I may cry till I get over it lol...either way then the shopping can start...not that I have any money but u always find money for the kids :-)

Brandy

Rash

So I don't know if I rash...dry skin...or my mom thinks ringworm...the odd thing is its not itchy any of those 3 would make it itch

So I don't what I have...the first thing I thought when the first one spot came was it was a patch of dry skin...it then grew to the size of a quarter...it hasn't went away but hasn't gotten bigger...now a whole bunch of them have showed up on my abdomen...but they are all still tiny...so I'm trying antihistamine cream to see if that keeps them at bay or makes them go away...if not then it will be a call to the doctor I suppose...

I've of course tried to self diagnose...it doesn't match any pregnancy rash...doesn't look the same and those all have the same main symptom of being severely itchy...which I'm not...and I did look up ring worm...it kinda looks similar...but not quite...so we'll see....figure give it to Monday unless it gets way worse by then...keeping my fingers crossed...

Oh and mom is so random...she has been on me and chelle about finding out the sex of our babies...I'm to find out next Friday and chelle on June 1st...I am now not to tell anyone what it is until chelle knows so that mom can find out at the same time...though she said if we both are having boys we better not tell her...and she expects us to tell her with balloons...or some form of pink and blue to let her know...so chelle and I figure we both are probably having boys just because no one wants more boys...not that we won't end up loving them...we'd just like little girls for a change...

I don't think mom can wait 5 days knowing that I know and she doesn't...though she also said its better I was first cause she knows I can keep my mouth shut and chelle can't...but we shall see...think pink everyone lol

Brandy

Sleep

So once again not much to say...unless I"m in panic mode or annoyed I lead a very boring life...oh funny story...

So I went to bed at like 1030 last night...I jumped and started looking for my cell phone for the time thought I slept in...well my cell phone said 1230 and i was like great just great it froze and I am late...so I start searching for something else w/ the time on it...and low and behold it was only 1230...I had slept a whole 2 hrs and thought it was an eternity...

I repeated not to quite the same panic at 330 then gave up on sleep at 430 and was at work at 6am...I don't what my problem was...but sleep wasn't in the cards though I felt like I slept well lol...

Brandy

Already stubborn

So today the rugrat for the majority of the morning decided it wanted to make its home on my bladder...I have never went pee so many times in one morning...I asked it nicely to please move...it didn't listen...so then pushed it and at first it didn't want to budge...so I pushed harder...and finally got it to move...well that lasted all of a minute and it rolled back to my bladder with vengeance...so I decided to just let it be...

Well later it did finally move...it moved to the other side and decidedly so seem to lay on my ovary...so that didn't feel any better than earlier except that I didn't have to run to the bathroom every 20 mins...its like can't it just lay there nice and still in a place that doesn't squash something and just kick nicely to let me know its alive once in a while...is that really too much to ask...

I'm sure I'm kinda broken when it comes to this stuff...the image of most mom's to be enjoy feeling the baby move and knowing its there and they seem to act like its all magic and roses...okay well to me its more annoying...and like I said maybe I'm broken but come on its not so comfy...or maybe I wasn't designed to actually go thru pregnancy...I mean I'm good with babies...I helped raise my nephew for the first year of his life...but I didn't have to give birth to them...

Oh I suppose I'll get use to it...or get over it...or continue to complain about it...guess time will tell

Brandy

SSDD

Just another day...going thru the motions...I wish a long enough nap would make problems just go away...or that I'll wake up and this will all of been a bad dream and I'll be able to stop this all before it happened...that's horrible to say but everything would be easier to fix before it happens...

Just feeling sorry for myself...I usually get over these things faster think the weather is making it last longer but it will all be ok in the end

I'm NOT Delusional

We know I'm not one to talk much about my actual problems...I'm usually the one who gives advice and such not over share with people...other than what I share here which is honestly censored and what I tell a few close friends most things I'm going thru I go thru myself...

Its just the way I am...I don't like others advice...I don't need others judgements...I just prefer to deal and move on...all honesty if being pregnant didn't show obvious signs...no one would know I was pregnant...and it'd be a hell of a lot easier for me that way...

Its not that I don't appreciate people caring...I guess I just have a hard time believing anyone really does care...I do and do and only get shit in return...so I have learned just to do it myself if I want it...its easier and no one then can disappoint you but yourself...

So though I don't feel like talking about the situation out loud...about money...about daycare...about anything and everything in between...its not cause I live in a happy little bubble where I magically think everything will work...I think about the stuff non stop and am figuring out what do to when and how and why...and that's all I can do right now...and if that's not good enough too bad...at this point I don't really care...cause I don't know what else to do...and if your not going to make useful suggestions and just criticize then just stay out of my life...

Brandy

(Side Note: Anyone who actually reads or knows about this blog aren't those causing me grief so please don't be concerned that I'm speaking about you)

Sigh

I really don't have too much to say today...another long day that I don't feel like I've accomplished too much...pretty much just hung out with my Tyler Jacob...he is such a character...

Dad made it home...still no clue when cancer treatment will start...but he's doing much better otherwise...Ty was happy his pap was home but then wanted to know when he was going to the VA and when was Chad going to jail...he's a little too smart for 3...

And he thinks its funny that there is a baby in my belly...he asked my why it wasn't on my side...and I'm like cause they grow in your tummy...and he goes oh just like mommy's was...and we're all having baby brothers to him...which is cute cause he understood and remembers enough that his mommy had a baby in her belly and he ended up with a baby brother...so to him mine and Chelle's will be his baby brothers too...well we're hoping for baby sisters lol...guess Chelle's ultrasound is on June 1st so she wont have to wait much longer after I find out to find out...if they are boys we'll both be returning them lol

Brandy

Catch Up

Well no blog yesterday cause they were doing maintenance during my normal blog time...not that I had too much to report...

So dad is coming home tomorrow...the VA still doesnt have a bed, which is kinda confusing considering he was to be going there for a stay on Monday so what happened to that bed...hopefully they'll get everything straightened out and he'll start his cancer treatments soon...apparently the lung dr in butler thinks that it'd be a good idea he'd be on a bi-pap every night instead of just a c-pap...so we'll see how that goes...though it'd probably be stupid to get now since he probably won't be at home long...unless they give him one that we then have to take down to the VA instead of the VA just letting him use one...always something...

Had a hoagie from the Hoagie Shop...its one of those things that I haven't had in a long long time and I didn't know whether to be excited cause they use to be so good...or scared cause somethings are better as a memory...but it was good...it was nice to eat a hoagie that actually had a filling in it instead of just bread...so its glad to see some things don't change and prices are still reasonable.

Oh and the boys name is picked out so all set for the 27th as long as the kiddo cooperates...which it probably won't...it doesn't seem to like to be bothered...kinda like its mother...but at least it will have a name whether it is a girl or a boy...then its on to nailing down everything else...October will be here before we know it!!!

Brandy

Yawn

So tired I almost forgot to blog...this tiredness thing I thought was to go away after the first trimester...one day I'm fine the next day I feel I could sleep all day...one day it will hopefully balance out...

I was in a good mood earlier...should of blogged then...now I'm just blah again...once again once one thing gets situated something else comes up...I'm so tired of it...wait maybe that's why I'm tired...it has nothing to do with the pregnancy and everything to do with me having to fix everything...I should figure out how to make that into a occupation cause I'd be rolling in dough...

Alright enough for now the more I stare at this, the more I think, the more difficult I'll find falling asleep even though I's exhausted...have a good one

Brandy

Let's see

Alright so much more rational today...yesterday just felt like a tailspin...sometimes too much just goes on and my mind goes into overdrive and I panic...but I'm better now lol

So dad still is in Butler Hospital...he's feeling better his CO2 levels are back to normal...they are waiting for a bed at  the VA to transport him so he can start his cancer treatment...though we don't know if they are taking him to Oakland to stay or the Aspinwall one...I guess we'll eventually figure that out...

I think I have a boys name just need to nail down the middle name and then I'm done thinking about it...that is till I find out what it is...my luck is it will now be stubborn and won't let us know what it is...

Lets see anything else...on Glee prom episode was wonderful...so many good songs and they made a horrible YouTube sensation into something entertaining...alright almost time for Pregnant in Heels love watching the clueless rich ppl...

Brandy

Just Blogging to Say I'm not Blogging Tonight

Just a short statement to say I'm not in the mood to blog tonight...I'm drained and pretty much anything said I'd sound like I'm throwing a pity party and am not in the mood for that...so I'm just not gonna say anything and will get myself in a better mood and blog tomorrow

Brandy

Mother's Day

So this is Chelle and mine first semi-mother's day...mom was planning this big to do for it all cause she is a little nutty like that...and ordered a cake...having a big dinner (dad got to pick what since it was to be his last like meal before cancer treatment)...and presents...

So my sisters and I went and got our pics taken for moms present since we hadn't had those done in forever...Chad didn't make it but he worked all day outside on the retaining wall he was redoing...getting the pics by the way was a fiasco cause they were running late and the weirdos before and after us were enough to make us laugh...we took relatively good pics though...and mom seemed to like them...

Anyways get a phone call this morning from mom that she called the ambulance to take dad to the hospital cause he was having a very hard time breathing...so had to get up and ready to go and we all went to the hospital...they decided they were keeping him overnight and he did seem better with the constant oxygen on but he was loopy from being tired and the meds...so we ended up spending half the day at the hospital cause they took forever to get him from the ER to a room...

Got home and Chad and Adam were working away with the assistance of Tyler...he is such a good little helper...so I decided I'd start getting dinner ready...mom and Chelle went shopping to finish what mom hadn't got done since dad messed up her morning lol...I even ended up having to cook the steaks cause Chad was tired and was finishing up the yard and said to start them...pretty proud of myself cause I managed to get them to a good well done w/ them still being juicy and tender...not one person complained... not even Chad who usually has something to say about my cooking...

Mom got Chelle and Kris new pots and pans...funny thing is both of them don't cook...so the gift was more for their baby daddies...Marques typically cooks for Tyler and Kris...Adam does most of the cooking for Chelle...maybe if the two girls actually ate they'd cook more...but they liked them and the boys liked them too...Tyler was confused as to why he didn't get a party lol...he's too cute and knows presents all to well...

Overall a long but good day...most peaceful holiday we've had in awhile...sad thing is it was probably that way since dad wasn't around...deciding on if I'm going to work tomorrow...I was taking off to take dad to the cancer treatment...since nothing was really accomplished today I still need to do laundry and such and probably should be around for mom in case he can come home...we shall see...

Brandy

Annoyances

I get annoyed relatively easily especially by relatives...I dont know how I am related to some of these ppl...they are so...I don't know what they are with out being politically incorrect...

They're rude...they make these comments that just get under your skin...and bother grandma then they wonder why she gets so worked up...its like how many times can u say something about the dog drooling...he's a dog and he drools...he's not doing it on purpose...and it already concerned grandma about it before they got here and of course they haven't shut up about it...and that's just one of the many stupid things they say that you just want to shout like really...your that stupid to actually say that to her...like seriously think before you speak and if you don't like it stay somewhere else...

Not only that but your kid is old enough to get his own drink if he's thirsty or something to eat if he's hungry...If he can't do that yet then he probably shouldn't be in college!!! They just aggravate me and can't wait for them to go back home...hopefully they'll be gone before I'm awake tomorrow...

Brandy

Another busy weekend

Late blog today...another busy day to start off another busy weekend...I don't know how I did it before when I only had 1 weekend off a month...cause now I seem to always be busy...

Mom is trying to plan some elaborate Mother's Day for us even though Chelle and I aren't mothers yet and its just her and Kris...So since we or should I say I can't let her do that and us not do something for her... I managed to throw together us getting our picture taken for mom...we wont have the pics just the proof sheet but its better than nothing...we haven't done any type of family picture in years...not sure if Chad will actually do it he said okay but tomorrow is still a ways away...if its at least us three girls its better than nothing...note to self should look for a cheap picture frame to give mom too...well a nice cheap one...lol

Gotta go grocery shopping...apparently were having steaks...since its also dads last meal before his cancer treatment and that's what he wanted...so its gonna be steaks, salad and baked potatoes...yummo...I don't know who is cooking...I imagine it will be Chad but who knows...it may be me...alright gotta get up early to get this stuff done so I'll have time to get ready for the pictures...

Brandy

Stop to Think

Its no wonder why I end up keeping myself so busy...if I actually stop to think about my life right now it could possibly spin out of control at any second...like those guys who spin plates...I'm pretty sure I'm trying to spin a dozen and if one goes they all go...

I'm not trying to throw a pity party...but gosh how much can one person/family take...dad is gonna start cancer treatment Monday...I worry about Tyler cause if something happens to his Pap he's not gonna know what to do...hopefully Chelle will get thru the rest of her pregnancy problem free but who knows with her blood count...grandma is losing her mind and I think more quickly than anyone wants to admit...mom can barely walk cause her arthritis is so bad but she won't go see a doctor...my 2 best friends are broken...

Oh not to mention I'm pregnant myself thank god that's going relatively easy except for when its moving around and feels like its trying to claw out of my uterus...which I find annoying and have threatened a c-section to it... then I feel mean but I don't have time to deal with the annoyance right now...gosh that sounds horrible...I'm pretty sure I'm the only person who finds being pregnant annoying...its not that I don't want the kid to get here...its the pregnant part that's annoying

I guess sometimes I still hope to wake up and this all was just some very odd dream and I'll be able to fix everything before it all happens so life isn't as hard as it is right now...but unfortunately it doesn't appear to be a dream...

Brandy

Ummm

Boy I lead a boring life...I again sit here with nothing really to say...I could whine more about still not having a boys name but god even I'm getting on my nerves with that topic...but time is a ticking there...and I still need a name...unfortunately the name I like the most Declyn or Declan everyone else does not like which only makes me like it more...I'm thinking for namesake this thing better be a girl lol...

Had to go to Kmart and exchange some clothes mom had picked me up...for the most part she had did a good job...but the one shirt she got...oh I dont know...it was a pretty color...but she got it so large that I am pretty sure I could fit three of me in it...and it had this odd tie thing at the chest...last thing i need is more attention to my boobs...so that was just returned...1 shirt just needed a smaller size and the shoes were too big...I mean I know I'm going to get bigger but I'm hoping not to the size of a house...

Alright well I'm going to try to stay up long enough to watch the new Top Chef tonight or I may just pass out anyways...hopefully will have something more interesting to say tomorrow

Smoking

So most know I did quit smoking shortly after finding out I was preggers...I always said if I ever had a kid I'd stop smoking while pregnant cause I can damage my lungs but I can't in good conscious possibly damage someone who doesn't even have lungs yet...even as a smoker I was always annoyed by pregnant woman smoking...

At first I weaned myself and only smoked around those who didn't know I was pregnant and didn't want to cause too much suspicion as to why I suddenly quit...as enough people knew I just stopped all together...for the most part it was pretty easy...though sometimes after dinner or out of boredom it is sometimes missed...but for the most part I can tell the difference...haven't coughed up half a lung since I quit...

I also don't like excuses as to why people can't quit...oh I just can't do it, or I don't have the will power...bogus...my dad who has lung cancer is still smoking right now cause he's not ready to quit...though my dad is like me and he will quit when he wants too and no one will tell him otherwise...but others who want to quit (cough theresa cough) and keep giving up before starting just need to get the excuses out of their heads...just do it...come up with a game plan that you know you can do and do it...that's the only advice I can give cause that's how I achieved it...

Brandy

Finally some not so bad news lol

Chelle and Adam got final approval on their house...so today they like each other and are excited...tomorrow they'll be at each others throats again...that's how their relationship rolls...their poor kiddo...

Chelle has also decided that whatever I have she is going to have too...I think she has decided since I know when my ultrasound is and figures it will be before hers she'll just go by my results...I told her it didn't quite work like that...but she figures that's how it will be cause they can't be different cause that would be too easy...(I'm not sure why she would think one being a girl one being a boy would be easier but I didn't question her logic at this point)

And please please still give your opinion on the previous posts names...I'll shut up about it once I have a boys name!

Comments, Thoughts, Ideas

This blog should be short and sweet...still trying to find a boys names...still nothing my heart is set on...here is the following list of some possibilities...comments, thoughts, ideas are still appreciated...

Benton Michael

Declyn Cooper

Jaxson Cooper

Camden James

Cameron James

Carter Thomas

Brandy