So I have stared at this blog for a good half hour thinking god I'm boring and have nothing to write about...maybe part of that problem is the fact I still haven't told most people about this baby thing...

Yes most my family know and most of my friends...I finally told my supervisor at work and my one co-worker knows but I there is something stopping me from still wanting other ppl to know...its only going to be a matter of time that its obvious...I just don't want to mention it or bring it up or talk about it

Still not sure what my problem is...its not that I'm not a little excited...I just don't like the bigger messier picture...and I don't want to attempt to explain it to people who don't know me that well...I'm just not that type of person or at least not in person...if they can find this blog they can read all about it lol...

Which makes me wonder again how do those kids let cameras follow and record their messes and how do their parents let it be recorded...its just kind of disgusting and how they are kinda proud of how they act...idk i just don't get it...

Oh just need to suck it up and deal with it cause well there isn't any other choice...and as I keep saying everytime I have a freak out it will be okay one way or another...

Brandy