I'm my own worse enemy no one can say anything that I don't already think or thought about this whole situation...but I also don't really need reminded of it...cause as stupid of situation I got myself into I'm not completely stupid...and the last person who needs to remind me of it is my alcoholic brother...not sure how someone heading off to jail again should have a holier than thou attitude but he sure manages it...
I guess hearing the truth still hurts even when u know it...and he really didn't say anything that I hadn't already bashed myself for...how did I let myself get involved with him again...why didn't I think I'd end up pregnant...he just went on and on...and my mom kindly chimed in her 2 cents here and there...I didn't even say anything cause I wasn't going to let him see me cry...I already know I ruined my life but I'm not gonna ruin this kids life...I just took it and burst into tears by the time I got to my car
Though I don't get where they think I just plan on pawning off the baby to them...I haven't asked them for anything...in fact as of now I don't want anything from them...no matter what I do its never good enough so I'm just done...
So now I just need to figure out how to do it all on my own...which I will cause I'm too stubborn to do it any other way...my head hurts now...my eyes are puffy...and my cold is super annoying when crying so I'm done now...I think I may have literally cried myself to sleep...at any rate no worries I'll be ok...it all has to be ok...
Brandy
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