7 weeks

A day behind on the posting but don't worry the pics are from yesterday :-)  He's getting so big and has discovered he his hands and that he can fit a majority of his fist in his mouth...he also realized there is a mirror above his swing and will lay there and look at himself and make noises and stick out his tongue...he's so silly

He's telling me a story or at least looks like it...

I still don't know how I'm gonna make it thru the day on Monday...I don't even think its sunk in yet that were gonna have to wake up, get ready, and go to daycare and work...I'm trying to get him ready...figuring out what I need to get and trying not to overpack so they don't think I'm a complete psycho...you think a snowsuit is overkill??? They say they take them outside whenever possible and though I don't think kids that young need to go for a walk I doubt they'll change that policy for me...so I'd rather know that he has something warm to wear there if they do...ugh...okay don't wanna think about this anymore...so off to get a piece of pie!

Brandy

Something to be Thankful For

I'm not one to list out what I'm thankful for just cause its Thanksgiving...but this year I decided to throw it out there and say I am so thankful for Zander...

I always thought I never really wanted kids cause I liked doing what I wanted when I wanted too...but now I happily revolve my world around this little person and what he wants and needs...I really didn't think you could love something so much...

I sometimes think I'm crazy cause I think he was suppose to be mine...obviously he grew inside me...but I really think regardless if I had choose a different path in life somewhere that he still would be here...cause he was meant for me...

Of course this day was just a good one to take pictures of the munchkin and of little Makayla too...no children were harmed or actually hit in the taking of these pictures...

Happy Thanksgiving

I got a turkey on my butt

Get off my boppy!!!

This is what you get for elbowing me

There both so cute and side by side they look like they could of been twins...though I maybe a little bias but I have the better baby :-)

6 weeks

Today Zander turned 6 weeks...where has the time gone...it makes me sad on how it goes so fast...he's cooing and smiling and sticking his tongue out...its exciting to see all those things and at the same time it means he's growing up...

His Christmas pics were taken today...he was good...no smiles though just his cute chubby cheeks and non descript smirk...as you see in the pic below he looked handsome and does well with shoes on his feet...but he's not exactly thrilled...yet that didnt stop me from spending too much money...when they are uploaded online if you'd like the link let me know and I'll give it to you...also if you'd like a christmas card with his precious face on it then give me your address and I'll send you one...either private msg me on facebook or text me or comment here and I'll get your info...

Here's another pic for his 6 weeks...he either looks like he is a cheerleader or a little mexican saying ole...love that little face

On to other matters...this whole daycare thing is breaking my heart...I just can't stand the thought of strangers raising him for all those hrs while I'm at work...I mean they were all nice and seemed to be very good with the kids that were there...but nothing is good enough for my baby if its not me and I can't convince my mom to quit her job...

My mom keeps telling asking me why I waited till last minute...which I didn't or else I'd have no place for him to go...but there is no one I know who can watch him or they live out of the way since work is already so far away...I guess I just really didn't think I'd be this attached and it wouldn't be a problem to drop him off...but I already hated being there and hate the thought of it...I just wanna be with him...

Not to mention the price of daycare is ridiculous...I'm essentially working to pay for him to be in daycare...the only way i'll be able to swing this long term is if the program they have at work is able to help pay for some of it...or I get a super big promotion...its all just too much...

Of course there is always the issue of getting child support...but I honestly just don't know if I want that...obviously the little bit of money would help but I don't want to share him...I guess and I maybe wrong but having no father consistently I think is better than having one inconsistently...I can't stand the thought of promises being made and not kept and his heart being broke when I can prevent it...and maybe I'm assuming he'd treat his son the same way has he treated me and pretty much everyone...but at the rate he's acted I'm assuming correctly

I just love him so much and want to do the best I can for him...when I read or hear on the news about ppl hurting their babies I just don't understand how they do it...what kind of monster are you if you can look at something so sweet and innocent and harm it in anyway...

I also don't know how ppl can just walk away from their kids and not care...and I dont mean adoption...but those who let anyone and everyone watch them and they just go on about their lives like its nothing...I have no desire to go out without him...if I can't bring him I don't wanna be there...I think I've been away from him for a total of 4 hrs this whole time and it wasn't even all at once...and I didn't like it...I'm his mommy I want to be the one there when he cries or just want cuddled...which obviously is why I'm so upset about the previous daycare topic...

Well since I came full circle and have myself upset again but feel slightly better venting I'm gonna call it a night...gots lots of more thinking to do...

Brandy

Kraynaks and Tyler and Trey's Birthdays

Been a busy weekend for Zander...Kraynaks was super busy...last year we went in October so it was dead...not so much so this time...the line started to wrap around the building...the kids were all good...just had to deal with a grumpy Chelle...literally she was worse than 4 kids combined....here are some pics of them waiting outside

Tyler all smiles waiting

Please get me inside

Richelle pouting

All snuggled after being held the whole time outside

And of course pics of some of the beautiful Christmas displays

Today was Tylers 4th Birthday party and Trey's 1st...it looked like santa came with how much loot they got...but they had fun...Trey wasnt really sure what was going on but he loved his smash cake...Poor Ty is getting sick and then was getting tired...he just didn't know what he wanted to play with...here are some pics from that

Trey's Cake

Tyler's Cake

Presents

Cake Aftermath

It was a long day...Zander's sawing logs just like he did for most of the party...so I'm gonna go to sleep too cause I am beat...have a good night all

Brandy

5 weeks

I almost forgot today was the 5 week mark for Zander...with just turning a month on monday and it being my birthday and getting ready for our trip to krayneks tomorrow and ty and trey's birthday on sunday I almost missed his little milestone...

Not that me forgetting to blog about it or upload a picture or 10 in different places matters...since I still managed to snap pics of him today without remembering...but how can you not take pics of that cute little face...

I just love him...couldn't of asked for a better birthday gift...he just amazes me on how good he is...I am so lucky...he has his little schedule he likes to follow...he's a good sleeper...when he's awake he is content...him and makayla may only be 3 days apart but personality they are worlds apart...I could go on and on but then it would just turn into bragging and I've never been much of a bragger...but when it comes to him I may have to start...

Well I'm gonna get to bed we have a big day tomorrow...will probably blog about tomorrows trip...a krayneks special edition over just the weekly ones...cause I'm sure I'll have pics to share!

Brandy

One Month

Its official my baby turned one month today...he had a big day...he successfully drank out of his first bottle with no problems...he smiled smiled for the first time today...he finally realized he can turn his grumpy frown upside down...but its short lived havent been able to capture it on film...

Speaking of which I must of took a million pics of him today in hopes I get one good one for his monthly picture frame of his head...here are a few of my favs

Isnt he just precious...I love him so much and oddly can't wait till his dr appt on Weds.to see how big he has gotten...he's just already growing up too fast...I know I'm gonna be heartbroken when I go back to work...I can't imagine not being with him pretty much every second...oh I don't want to think about it...better pump then bed...

Brandy

4 weeks

I can't believe my baby is almost a month old...its so bittersweet...you wait for what seems like an eternity for them to get here...okay it went fast other than the last month or so...and now time is going so fast...soon I'll be back to work...its gonna break my heart leaving him...(I know I can't believe I have become one of those ppl)...

So his 4 week pic I'm not a fan but he wouldn't stay still or look at the camera...but there it is...though below it is a much cuter pic a day shy of 4 weeks...(okay so they dont want to upload so when u see the pics here I went back and edited the post cause the pics uploaded without an error)

I have his christmas pics scheduled...I'm hoping he cooperates better than the steeler pics...I schedule it to the first appt so we shouldn't have to wait...so I'm hoping those turn out, not that the steeler ones are bad...the group one is cute...trey is almost in tears...zanders single one has his signature grumpy face...his 1 month dr appt is coming up too I'm curious to see what the little moose weighs now cause he seems so big...oh and I forgot about halloween...so heres a pic of that...

Having a phone with a camera so handy is just a downfall for new moms cause you end up with a million pics of randomness...and you want them all but don't need them all...but hate to delete them...or maybe its just me...

Next week I'm gonna try working on a bottle schedule to get ready for daycare...gonna breast feed him first thing then bottles during normal hours and then breastfeed again in the evening and see how that goes...this whole daycare thing makes me nervous anyways...I'd prefer to take him to work with me...I just don't like the idea of other ppl watching my child...and I know I have to cause I obviously have to work...but that doesn't make me like it any better...

Alright its past my bedtime and I finally got the pics to upload thank goodness...night all

Brandy