Yes yes he finally arrived...sorry for such the delay...I've been a little preoccupied and a 5 day stay in the hospital isn't a conducive blogging situation...So I guess I'll start w/ last Thurs. and come to the present...I'll try to be short about it but this may be a long blog...just warning ya...
So on Thurs 10/5 I woke up and though this may sound stupid or at least I thought I was stupid...I wasn't sure if my water broke or not...so I did some stuff and went up to the hospital and got their by 10 am...so they hook you up to everything and run tests and can't figure out if my water broke or not...so then I felt slightly less stupid if they weren't sure...so had an ultrasound and a second test and nothing came back with a positive answer...mind you at this point I had already been there close to 6 hrs...so the dr decided whatever it may be since I was already pass due that I should be induced and would be staying...they said they'd let me eat and start cervidil no later than 6pm so hopefully I'd start labor easily in the morning with the pitocin...
Well the cervidil seemed to start working by morning I was cramping and had dilated and effaced a little more than I was...not by much though...so they started the pitocin...and everything went downhill from there...contractions started...now if we remember I didnt want pain meds...and it was okay except the stupid monitors werent tracing them so I couldnt lay how I wanted making my already aching back hurt worse...so they called the oncall dr in to break my water so they could use internal ones...well at that point I had decided I'm never having another child cause the whole water breaking is disgusting...so after they cleaned the mess up...it was calm and I was like well that's not so bad...that lasted 5 mins when the first contraction hit and I ended up sick...so since I was puking they decided I was getting an epidural...which that didn't hurt like most ppl say it does...so that kicked in and no more pain...but as time dragged out my legs were more and more useless cause after probably 10 hrs I also know I never could handle being paralyzed or ever want a epidural again...anyways...things were moving till they drastically stopped...I got to 4cms and everything went disastrous from there...as they increased the pitocin Zander decided he didnt like that and his heart rate would drop and he's start squirming and I'd start puking...they'd have to stop the pitocin till he was stable again...then the dr would instruct them to start again...and then we'd end up with the same results...we were a hot mess...finally after the third time maybe the fourth I kinda lost track of the misery...the dr decided his heart rate dropped too low and I needed a c-section...great cut him out of me at is point its like 730 at night I was tired and figured he was tired and I wanted to feel my feet eventually...
So my mom, chelle, and kris were all there even though I had said I didnt want anyone...since nothing went remotely close to a regular child birth I wasn't even complaining about that...so chelle decided she wanted to go in with me so she could see what a c-section was like cause she was having one on monday...they decided since my epidural was so good they wouldnt have to do a spinal and just increase the med for the section...so finally got to the or and once again no one wanted to listen when I said there'd be a very good chance of me getting sick at some point...chelle thought I was sleeping as they were beginning to cut me open and stuff I was concentrating on not puking...so we got to the point of when they were pulling Zander out of me...and I was told to take deep breathes cause there would be pressure of them pushing down right below my ribcage...well pretty sure they just pressed on my stomach cause forget breathing...I was puking...and its hard to puke when u cant fill your stomach convulsing and all of a sudden your puking and thinking god I think I may choke...which lead to me having a panic attack over the fact that I felt like I couldn't breathe...so the anesthesiologist gave me something to calm me down...whatever it was I didnt feel sick anymore and I could breathe...oh yeah during the panic attack they did try to show me zander...I didnt care cause I thought I was dieing...after I was calm I did get one more peak at him when they took him out to the nursery...oh and come to find out as they were taking him out...even if the induction would of worked he would of never came out cause his big head was stuck...I guess it was swollen and deformed that night but by the time I seen him I didnt notice though I was exhausted and out of it...back to the c-section...they finished closing me up...and set me out to pacu...I was drained and wanted to sleep and feel my feet...to which apparently I could wiggle my toes though I couldn't tell...well something randomly clicked in my head while laying there that I just had a baby...and I wanted to see him...so I was like gotta wake up gotta let them get me to my room...and by then I could finally move my feet and know it...so the anesthesiologist released me from there and off to my room I go...well was pushed...so after getting looked at again and told this that and the other thing I finally got to see Zander...
To me he looked perfect...looking at the pic you can see his eye is swollen from being stuck and there is a bruise on his forehead and his angel kiss was a little irritated...and I didnt really see his head cause of the hat but was told more in detail the next morning that it was pretty swollen and the swelling went down and he was perfectly healthy...so even semi out of it and exhausted I did keep my word to myself that I would at least try to breastfeed and it actually went well the first time...so we've been keeping at it...
Alright well that got us to him being born...I think I'm done for now...he should be waking up to be fed so that then I can go to bed...he's been so good thus far...more hospital adventures to come
Brandy
