What to write about today???  Nothing too exciting going on so not much to blog about today...work was peaceful well as peaceful as that place can get...the dog is cuddled up beside me...oh I know...

There is my cute little evan...laying on my tummy...now I wonder does he know and was trying to keep the bun in the oven warm....or was he trying to squish it...or did he just want attention...I'm guessing attention cause he is a big baby lol

Brandy

Coming out...

Alright get your minds out of the closet...Coming out as in I finally told my supervisor I'm preggo...which yes I was a coward and did it thru email...I know I'm awesome like that...there is just too many ears that can overhear things they don't need to know about

Though he obviously didn't get the point that I really didn't want to speak about it in the open as I said in my email since he kept coming to my desk explaining or asking me questions...All I kept thinking was shut up all these ppl don't need to know...not that it wont eventually be obvious...but they can wait till then...

I just still get uncomfortable with the questions that come with it...which is my own issue cause as I've said I'm my worse critic...and trust me most of these ppl have no room to judge me cause some of them are just off the wall odd...and that's putting it nicely...

Oh maybe I'll get over myself...hahaha...not the first person to end up in this situation wont be the last...and at least I'm not like 15...then again that may actually be better cause I'd be too naive to know what a mess I have managed to get into...oh well...life goes on...

Brandy

Adult temper tantrums

Today was a day that I didn't even make it to 7:00am at work before wanting to cause bloodshed...I don't know if it was the hormones, or the headache i had, or the simple fact my coworkers don't have brains that managed to literally get me irritated enough to pretty much throw a temper tantrum..

I just don't understand their work ethics...they literally talked about something for 15 mins and how its not their problem we don't have it let someone else deal with it...well if they could read a computer screen and use logic there would be no need for a discussion...cause it took me all of 2 mins to track down the thing in question and it was right were it was suppose to be...

After I found it mumbled I'm going to kill them in earshot of my supervisor..and throw the application at them...my supervisor asked me if I had too much caffeine...I was like pretty sure I haven't had enough yet...which actually I think was the cause of the headache cause it went away after I got some coffee in me...

I just hope its a peaceful day tomorrow...cause everyone just seemed loud rowdy and annoying today...its so weird cause I really like my job...I just don't like the majority of my coworkers...where at my last job it was the opposite...I hated the job but liked my coworkers...can't I have a happy medium...who am I kidding a happy medium in my life doesn't exist.

Brandy

Girls just wanna have fun...or at least seem easier to name

I have decided that this child needs to be a girl based on the fact if its a boy it is not going to have a name...I have 2 girl names that I like and I think depending on what it looks like...

Boy names forget it...I just can't come up with anything that I like and that other ppl like too...so this means I'm probably having a boy...and it is going to remain nameless other than baby boy caldwell...cause its mother cant pick a name...

I know what your thinking you have plenty of time...no I don't cause if I'm going to find out the sex of the baby from the ultrasound then the names have to be picked out before that...cause where is the fun if u know and then figure out a name...not that this has been very fun...

But just like if you were going to wait on finding out the sex and pick out names for either sex...I want it to be the same way by the time of the ultrasound whenever that is...so the clock is a ticking...

Brandy

Nothing to exciting to report today...though right now evan is driving me crazy...took him to brit and brian's and he was sooooo good now he's acting like a psycho who will not stop barking and just lay down and go to sleep...I'm ready to strangle him...u'd think he'd be wore out from the excitement of being somewhere new...but no not evan...

Well I'm gonna finish watching last cake standing and probably go to bed...another long week going to start...and I still need to tell my supervisor I'm pregnant...oh really shouldn't put that off much longer...I'm just not good at approaching the subject...so we shall see how that goes...alright bedtime!

Brandy

Another Day...Not Another Dollar...

Today was Chelle's birthday...a whole big 22...last year she was celebrating in Vegas...this year she is pregnant and her boyfriend is buying them a house...must say she is in quite a better position that I am...yet in her own way she is sooo not ready to be a mom...she still is a little too selfish and spoiled...hopefully the baby will make her grow up a little...probably not though cause little trey needed a diaper change I told her to go ahead and change him and she made a face and said that's his mom's job...

Oh and apparently I'm back to zip on names for this kid...I swear its name is gonna be pumpkin head cause that's what I'll call it most times anyways...so mom likes Jordan Robert...I don't like Jordan for a boy...I still like Jordyn Bryn for a girl...she wants me to use Robert somehow because it was my grandpa's middle name...I just don't like Robert and I also don't find it fair to name it after one person over another...though my other grandpas name was Wilbur and I don't know what his middle name was but I cant imagine it much better...so back to some more online searches...so we shall see...

Brandy

Seriously...seriously

Sigh...every single time I finally think I have something under control...something else goes wrong...I really don't get what I've done to deserve this life right now...Like was I serial killer in a former life...maybe Hitler...I just don't get it...seriously...

I think I'm generally nice to most ppl...I don't go out of my way to cause trouble or harm...yet seem to have the worst karma in the world...this year I've managed to make more mistakes, run into more mishaps, and end up pregnant oh and half of them happened w/in the first month of the year...but as of right now the rest of the year isn't getting any better...

I'm at the point where I'm just emotionally drained...no sense in tears or laughter or anything...just blank...empty...ready to toss in the towel...if anyone can figure out how to trade in this life for a new let me know cause I'd be all for a new life right now...

Oh I don't know I'll figure out something cause I have to and I always seem too...I'm just tired of doing it...C'est la vie...

Brandy